As I sit here tonight listening to the new Patterson Hood album reflecting on the events of the day, I have to admit that I am full of several different emotions. I will preface what I am going to say next with this will be the last time I will share about this subject. I am making this a promise. A promise to myself, to her, to my readers and to God. Today I received an email. And in that email was the truth. The truth that after two years she never did love me and that she used me, and that she never wants to see me again... I will take the advice a friend of mine gave me today. Take it for exactly what it is. Well I will let you imagine what the rest of the email said but that is the jist of it. But instead of going on a huge negative bit about it I am going to celebrate. I want to celebrate the people that have never lied to me with those three deadly little words. Tonight I want to show joy, gratitude, and the unmeasurable amount of love to the people that do truly love me. They love me without the expectations of getting some thing in return. True selfless love is something I truly admire and hope for in my own life. To give and to receive that kind of love means to me that I have finally made it home. So to all my friends Pete, Jake, Emily, Geoffrey, Brian, Aaron and Annie,Jason F, Janice and Rusty, my parents, Corrin and Craig, Tiffany, Tony. Tonight I celebrate the love you give me, It is honest,strong and even curt sometimes. I would expect nothing less. This is what it is. Also in this celebration I will promise to her and to all of you that I will never let a woman believe that I truly love her when I really dont. That is a deception that is too hard to forgive. Never will I use those words without complete honesty or for ill gets. So like I have said many times before. Please say it and mean it. Or get out if you dont and dont look back. For those of you that do have it and do mean it. Remember it is your actions that will make them believe the words I Love You. Celebrate all the love that you have. It is a beautiful thing to be shared and rejoiced. For there are some that will never know what reciprocated love really feels like.
To all of you that I mentioned I LOVE YOU EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU! I hope I will put forward the actions to prove it!
After the damage you've done
How can you leave me now